Hi there, I just read my posts back and they are still 100% how I feel. The only thing I feel differently about now is having missed out on 2 lots of maternity pay - I didn't qualify for any with either baby no.1 or 2. However, I am currently on maternity leave with baby no. 3 who is 9 weeks old and this time I am getting maternity pay This is something to consider if you have financial responsibilities but my husband's salary was enough that it wasn't a problem, it was just an annoyance. The NHS mat pay is good compared to standard mat pay but it's not amazing. I'm currently ST3 in GP and would have qualified in August had I not had another baby. Another thing I have noticed, I suppose by socialising with other mothers more, is that older mothers, or at least the ones I've talked to, did not have easy straightforward pregnancies which meant they took more time out because they went on mat leave early or needed sick leave during their pregnancies. As for F1/F2 transition - I timed my mat leave with second child so that I finished F1 in August ready to start F2. This meant it was shorter than I might have liked (just over 5 months) but seeing I wasn't getting any mat pay and had good childcare, it was fine. What I will say is that once you're in the throes of your rotations that are heavy on out of hours work eg. A&E, you need either a partner who can pick up the slack or a nanny. Because my husband is away alot, often at short notice, we ended up getting a nanny for most of their younger years and then changed to au pairs once they were 3-4 years old. Even when I was on call from home, I had to have someone there in case I got called in and this was the only way. That said, I pretty much handed over my salary to the nanny every month so factor that in, as well as losing a bedroom (which is a pain). Au pairs are much cheaper but much more limited in hours and kids ages - I sent them to nursery in the mornings when we had au pairs so that they didn't exceed their hours. My final 'advice' would be to consider having them close together - my first two are 13 months apart and it meant that they used the same nanny (rather than paying for a nanny when one of them is at school), enjoyed the same things eg. TV stories or soft play/play park and now it means they play together 99% of the time. Which is great because I'm looking after a little baby and can give him my attention whilst they pretty much entertain themselves. I'd like one more and this time we're aiming for 11 month gap so yes, we're trying again. My husband was a bit like 'WHAT?!' but I explained my logic. The 11 months thing is because of mat pay calculations so that I at least get a little bit for child no. 4. I hope this helps. As for forgetting stuff - you'll be fine, I promise you, 100%. Most of the theory you learn at med school gets stored somewhere and it's the day to day stuff on the wards that you need to know and that you can only learn by working on the wards. Even the practical stuff you'll initially be scared but then you'll get back into it. Before starting F1 I did a week on the wards to get back into cannulating and taking blood. This was helpful in boosting my confidence but it wasn't essential as I was still rubbish when I started and it was only as I did a million cannula's that I got better. And it's true that things don't work out - I planned a baby, fell pregnant, then had a miscarriage whilst working on a Paediatrics rotation. It was a pretty difficult time and is partly why there's such a huge (almost 5 year gap) between my middle and youngest. The other reasons is mat pay considerations - I wanted to make sure I got mat pay with the third. Good luck with whatever you do, but I'd get a move on, if you were hoping for straightforward conceiving and pregnancies. You might be fine but as a GP trainee, I'm seeing lots of older mums having problems conceiving and then it becomes a huge issue which impacts on their lives and relationships.