Hi anyone, I am thirty years old, currently on an access course and was rejected for medicine this year. I have three children, Melody 10, Bethia 8 and Tyler 6 (she is a girl). I have taken the decision that it is not financially viable to go back to work (was forced to give up last time for financial reasons), I can't therefore take a gap year, as I can't afford to be out of work - catch 22. Therefore my only choice is to be a student... and so it all begins. Tonight, I am supposed to be revising hard, as I have a wonderful maths exam on tuesday. I have just got rid of the kids to their dads (he is the one who did my best mate of 18 years and got her preggers) and now (in theory) I am supposed to be revising. However, what am I doing??? I am sitting here, planning on how best to sort my house out. I have got to prepare it for moving at some point in the future. I have got to sell it before the mortgage company repossesses it, so I guess it has to be. I don't get a penny off of my ex. The CSA says he can't afford it now he has a new baby, so I guess that just leaves it to me to pay for the three he left behind. Life is a great thing, isn't it? Well, my life is going to be great, and I will show you how. Things start here in my hell hole, but they are going to get better.