Hi Everyone, Well I am 24 years old, I did the first 18 months of nursing, but left because it wasnt for me. I felt very unchallenged academically. Ive now got an 9 month old baby, and worry that I have not got a career in place and that I need to get something sorted to secure her future. I joined NMM in 2003, this is how long I have been to-ing and fro-ing over this issue. I recently got offered a place to study midwifery at my last choice uni for this september. In my heart, I know its not my passion because I worry that it wont give me the same sense of intellectual satisfaction that medicine ever could. I know I would make a good midwife, but I know that I could never be happy as JUST a midwife, I would need to do more and more i.e PhD e.t.c I feel that medicine would give me the intellectual stimulation that I crave. I enrolled on an access to human sciences course to keep my mind ticking over..and so far I have achieved 11 distinctions, in biology, chemistry and physics. Something, I never thought I was capable of. I worry that if I go for medicine, I will fail. So I know this is an insecurity issue. My fiance is happy that I have been given my place for midwifery but I KEEP FINDING MYSELF coming back on this forum and reading posts from time to time, why cant I just believe in myself and go for it. I said to my partner, I worry that when I am a student midwife I will wish I could be doing what the doctors are doing. I used to do that when I was a student nurse..what am I doing? Pointless post I guess..just needed to get it out.